Summer Trip!!

Finally made up my itinerary for my Cali trip. I'll B leaving for a week in June, I can't wait!! :) They make me even more excited because they're just as excited too lol.

I'm contemplating getting a hotel or staying with one of my best friends, don't know what I wanna do yet. Found a car rental place that won't charge me 'underage fees', made me happy. N its not bad, 200 for a week, unlimited miles N full tank of gas.

I just need a break from my life for awhile, get away N forget my problems. I wanna B able to enjoy standing on the beach N letting the waves wash over my feet, carrying all the sorrows away with it...

Buried Treasure

{Went to a party last night, got approached by so many dudes simply on my attire (I had on a simple black freakum dress). I felt like I had a "thick wit it" sign plastered on my head, like I was a piece of ass they wanted for the evening. I even got invited back to several of their places afterwards, of course I politely declined. That feeling inspired this poem.}

"Hair up, sweats on,
Would you notice me?
Freakum dress, music loud
All he sees is ass N titties.
He approaches, pushes up on me
Thinks he can dive into my treasure chest.
But baby, you don't have the key
Noone does, not even the best.
A lot of ships have crashed N burned,
In search of my buried treasure.
Cause, don't take offense (as I know you will),
You're not the first, there were many others.
But as hard N as long as they tried,
None of them got through.
So what really makes you think you can??
What's so special about you??
For an hour, mayB two, what,
You make my body feel damn good??
Then you'll have gotten what you wanted,
Just like you thought you could.
Sail on, brotha, sail on
Sorry, no loot for ya here.
This treasure chest is locked up tight
Go find your unlocked treasure elsewhere..."

Therapy ♥

Since I had a little extra money to spend from working overtime, I decided to splurge a little on me. That's acceptable, right??

I got an entire outfit from Ross for $30 and some change (white/black/blue tank dress, taupe/black belt and brown gladiator sandals, talk about bargain shopping) got a mini blue skirt and silver/blue sequined one shoulder top from Forever XXI for about $27 and last but not least 2 pairs of gladiators from Charlotte Russe, one platinum and one off gray (I'm a sucker for buy one get one $10) for under $35.

I'm starting to buy more shoes than clothes, pretty soon I'll have a pair in every color. I've yet to find those red heels I've been dreaming of, and I want a pair of deep purple flats really bad as well as a pair of navy blue flats/heels/wedges, doesn't matter. Those are the only colors remaining to complete my shoe collection, but we all know I'll keep buying more lol.

Shopping is the one thing that never disappoints me or let's me down and puts a smile on my face everytime. Gotta love it :)

Just A Thought

Diamonds are forever,
Lovin you aint.
So you can give me the diamonds
While you keep the pain.
I don't think its fair,
That I love you this way
I live for those three words
I'm so used to you sayin.
But alas, my heart's heavy,
Yet I shouldn't complain;
Cause I had you for a season
Which is more than okay...

Twitter Wifey

So I met this girl, figuratively speaking. Her name is Sammi N she lives in CT. She's cool as hell, we have the same interests N we talk almost everyday. Is it weird that we've become close in such a short period of time?? I feel like she's the friend I always wanted, a confidante who doesn't judge me N tells it like it is. Did I mention that she's hella cute N shares the same preference as I do?? :) Lol I love meeting new people...

All Screwed Up

I love dancing. Celebrated a friends b-day party at a latin salsa club tonight, freakin awesome. Hispanic places have the best alcoholic beverages.

Someone told me I use alcohol as a crutch when I've had a bad day. I disagree cause I drink it other times too. It does make me feel good though, which is why I like it so much. Also it makes me bold. I just danced the night away with people I don't know N it was fun. I flirted, I smiled, I laughed, I conversed. I had fun, N Lord knows its been awhile.

Love and bisous,

*Brown Sugar*
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Sweet Daydreams & Bittersweet Old Memories

Ive decided to take a week off during the summer and go back to Cali. Total spur of the moment (but not really since its so far away). I miss my best friends and ex-girlfriend, they were there by my side through the highs and lows and still are even though their so far away. Now THATS commitment, gotta love it.


Oh, the memories... Sophmore summer/Junior year at Loara H.S. I was a size 15 but did I let that slow me down?? No. The best years of my life.

Hunnybun, me and Miriam. She was more random than me, believe it or not.




Ray-Ray and I. She totally molested me when she found out I was leaving lol good times.



Me and Luis (pronounced 'Lou-ees'). Yes, he has on makeup, he's not gay, just a Morrissey follower. He lives in Germany now :( I miss him supplying me with alcohol



Hunnybun and I. Love love love this girl, she told me her life story the day I met her. We've been best friends ever since




Joanna and I. Erick gave this pic the most pornish title, "Joanna & Rose stars in 'Slippery When Wet'" lmao



The kitty they adopted and named after me (Azor)



My ex Leslie and I, she still makes me happy :)



Erica, Lezbear, Simone, Jessica Dowdy N I. The 'Umbrella' song was playin in the background, hence the U's lmao



Me, J.Dowdy N Lezbear


Class of 2008 baby!!



I miss the beach, the waves washing over my feet



Ive gotta admit, Im a city girl at heart. Miami, Orlando, LA, Anaheim, I live for the fast paced life. I feel thats why I fell in love with ATL to begin with, I dont do slow well. One week with the loves of my life will make me so happy. Raving, sitting on the beach drinking pina coladas and margaritas (legally of course). I wish I could take someone with me, the little one would just get in the way. Have someone experience the Cali way of life. Hopefully my anticipation will pay off, I'm saving up mula as we speak. Here's to old loves and new adventures, I'll raise my glass to that ♥

"It sucks when the one person you want most is the one person you don't need."- Chasity Raye

My play sister has got a point, this quote is the story of my life. I think this applies to a lot of people though. You can't help what your heart wants, no matter how hard your head tries to make sense of it. And that, my friends, is why so many of us end up heartbroken in the first place. Cause when it comes to matters of the heart, logic doesn't matter nor does it work...

Pray that I get outta this slump soon, "I need to get my happy back"-NeNe Leakes.